Hello beautiful people!
Looooooooooooooong time, no see.
It is currently the middle of March and I have already completely ditched my plans of blogging more in 2018 and making time to write. I’ve been busy with school and work (as per usual) and I haven’t made writing a priority as much as I wanted to.
I have also been off of social media for the past month and I have plans to make a more in-depth blog post about that coming soon!
Anyway, with a break from social media, I also took a break from blogging. In this time, I decided to finally, finally,
finally start a youtube channel.
(and I know this is considered social media still but like, hold your horses, we will talk all about that in my next post 🙂 )
For now, I have news that I FINALLY MADE A YOUTUBE CHANNEL!!!!
Anyone who knows me at all knows that I have always wanted to make a youtube channel ever since the age of 12, when I started watching videos regularly myself.
I love youtube, I love that this online website allows creators to make videos and post their own content of their choosing.
Anyone can find their place on youtube whether it is watching makeup artists share their tips and tricks, recreating DIY projects, or watching people tell crazy personal stories about their lives-if you want it, youtube has it.
It is this magical place where you can post what you want, when you want, and for no reason other than you just wanted to have a good time filming a video.
Sooooo naturally I wanted to join in on this community. I wanted to post videos that made me laugh- both while watching and while filming them. I wanted to post the things I wanted to post, wanted to share my take on this beautiful, creative place and it has been every bit as fun as I thought it would be.
Someone said to me:
“Why do you even make videos? You only get like 7 views per video?”
And my response was pretty much along the lines of:
I am doing this for myself.
I never was out for numbers, never cared who was watching. If my mom is the only person who will ever see my video, I am still happy. I am still satisfied because this was never about other people, this was about me.
I made this channel as a way to express myself. And at this moment, only a few weeks in, I can say that making youtube videos has brought me nothing but happiness and that will always be, with or without viewers.
Youtube has given me this opportunity to film videos that make me laugh, to try things that make me laugh.
I know it might sound crazy-being a person that sits in their room alone and talks to their camera- but oftentimes talking about certain things on camera makes me feel better. Makes me laugh at myself and relieves a lot of anxiety.
And I know, I know, I know I am still super awkward in front of the camera, but that can only get better. Right?
I love expressing myself, doing fun things, laughing at myself, and just in general- trying my best to get outside of my comfort zone.
Life’s too short.
I knew if I didn’t start this channel now( at age 21) I would be a real, actual adult soon and I would never do it. And then it would always be something I wanted to do but never did because I was scared or intimidated.
Like I said, it isn’t about subscribers, it isn’t about how many people watch my videos, it has always been about me and the way that youtube has always made me feel included and accepted- even though I’m super weird and never fit in anywhere.
Also, I think making thumbnail pictures (the picture that appears for people to click on your video) is the most fun thing in the world to do. I love making funny faces, and using pretty out-there poses (as seen in the 3 photos above 🙂 )
I am so happy to be on the other side of Youtube, the creator side.
If you have read all the way down to here, feel free to visit my channel if you’d like (and subscribe if you want 😉 )
As always, thank you so much for tuning in, and reading my blog!!!!